39 Weeks and the worst heartburn ever

I officially can't stand the heartburn anymore. No seriously, I have like three Tums a day, but I want way more than that. I don't even know what to do, sometimes I just want to cry. Thankfully I have only experienced this extreme of heartburn the past two and half weeks, some women have it a lot longer. This being my 39th week, my due date is 2/11, however since the doctor's office goes Sunday to Sunday, they have my due date as 2/14. So technically, my full 40th week would end on 2/18 (or 2/21 per the doctor's office). Since I have gestational diabetes, they will check me on 2/11 and if I am dilated enough, they will scrape my membranes, which should naturally induce labor. If I am not dilated enough, they will chemically induce the week of 2/14 (cringe).

I do not believe in induction until at least the 41st week is through. I think babies know when it is right to enter the world and I trust that my body knows when it is right too, however I also don't want to put her under any stress that is not warranted. I have to go twice a week to these non-stress tests, which keep showing me and the doctor that she is perfectly fine. Everything is coming along, I mean I haven't even gone over the due the date yet. However the doctor does think she will be big by next week, like 9.5 lbs. But if you look online, a 'normal' size baby is considered anywhere from 7.5 - 9.5 lbs, so I am not worried.

I am ok with them checking me this Thursday and scraping membranes. I feel kind of pressured to let them do it, because my mom is coming in and she only has a certain amount of days she can stay and we surely could use her help once baby is here. I'm ok with the natural induction, but if I am not dilated enough, I just know what's coming the next week and it's not going to be fun. It will be sometime the week of 2/14, they will decide on a date this Thursday. It makes me sad that some doctor should be able to choose my baby's birthdate, it goes against the laws of the universe, I so highly and rightly believe in. Or maybe the universe is speaking through the doctor? I don't know, it's too much to think about really and too sad.

This past Saturday I walked 5.5 miles. I would do this every evening, but now since the snow decided to show up, there's no chance of walking outside. Ugh! It doesn't snow for almost two months and then when I need the sidewalks to be clear and the temp to be warm, it decided to snow non stop for two days!! Darn it!! I'm going to look up some stuff on doing the eliptical, maybe that would help? I just don't think it is as good as walking because it is so low impact and walking would really help my hips. I guess anything helps though.

Swimming in this sea of life,
La Sirena and baby tadpole